So as the title suggests im feeling a bit meh today, mainly because I have to find a pair of trousers for work and a white shirt (my uniform is yet to arrive)
And maybe its just me but ALL black work trousers in anything above a size 16 are unflattering AS FUCK and for someone like me, who eats their feelings, and has a vile figure (2 chidlren arent an excuse its totally down to my love of takeaway, but my 2nd child really did a number on my figure) i find it near impossible to find smart work clothes, skirts and dresses would be fine but trousers are so hard :(.
I weighed myself and im 15.9 stone , so iv lost some weight as last time i was just over 16 stone, but I really need to start getting my arse in gear (literally) and shifting the stones.
Am i feeling determined? Hell no, due to the impending summer, the humidity and my intracranial hypertention 90% of exercises are not possible for me, I miss running so much, and miss weight training I used to live in the gym but the balance since the kids has been all off.
Im hoping once they are both in FT daycare, and now I have my work schedule sorted i can start including some kind of exercising. Maybe on Mondays as the kids dad isnt working I could walk thatd be a good 3 miles each way, then on Tuesdays after his long shift I could try to include something in there and the rest of the evenings just do home circuits?
Its not something thats impossible, in fact its more than doable its just the process and the fact that I am lazy af and tbh im not interested in losing bundles of weight, id be happy weighing 12 stone.
Now that little moan is out of the way I feel so much better this blog really does help me alot in stepping back, and looking over my feelings, moods thoughts and realising things arent actually that bad, they could be worse, they have been worse but one things for sure THEY CAN ONLY GET BETTER
& another reason to be SUPER EXCITED is that CoF (cradle of filth) ARE PLAYING IN BELFAST IN OCTOBER, THEY HAVE A NEW ALBUM COMING IN SEPTEMBER TOO so im going to ne getting tickets on Monday when they are released.
This is their new album name and artwork ❤
This is day 2 on half a acetazolomide 2x daily tomorrow I increase to 1 2x daily its supposed to be 1 in the morning and 2 in the evening but on that dose I often got kidney infections.
Im making sure I drink plenty of water (at least 2 ltrs) daily.
My anxiety about Monday is starting but thats to be expected I guess
The most important project you will work on is yourself