Iv no excuse as to why iv not posted my mind has been all over the place lately iv been off work for 6 weeks. Its ridiculous but im back on Thursday and i will prove i am capable.
I relapsed with self harm about 2 weeks ago and the urges since are phenominal, also still feeling suicidal but the home help team are handing me back to my CPN even though I have made it clear im not ready but thts the NHS for you.
My heart and mind has been fucked around so much lately that im no longer interested in relationships, i actually quite enjoy the lonliness.
My daughters behaviour hasnt improved but shes just started P2 and is getting special assistance which im hopeful will help.
My son starts nursery on monday where the fuck does time go!!! I still know they, my husband and my mum will be better off without me to be precise £115,000 better off!
Tbh im growing tired of life and beind a burden to everyone.
This depression just wont seem to lift.
- Positive thing today my new phone arrived
- I sold 2 packets of juice plus shakes for £20 so thats weed money sorted
I cant wait to start working again start paying my mum back and helping my husband start his buisness then my work here will be done.
Del boy “you saw a movement in the trees? Ofc you saw a movement in the trees theres a ruddy typhoid out there” – sir david jason as Del Boy